Not physically, or anything. The house is as clean as it’s ever been. My emotions, however, are a wreck. My older two children are wrecked. My 6 year old cried last night for the first time since his brother was taken from us. That was incredibly difficult, as I’m having a hard timekeeping myself together. He went to bed, and got up five minutes later. As soon as he got up, he came out into the living room, bawling. I asked him what was wrong, and with tears pouring down his face, he said, “Charlie’s not here.” Oh god, why is this happening to my family? I just want it to end. I just want these awful people to give my baby back to me. We don’t deserve this, and I’ve never done anything to hurt my children, or to let them get hurt like this.
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